The sun’s gone down and here we are in Santa Barbara/Isla Vista, stretching both our manifestation and surrender muscles to open up to receive a place to rest tonight.
I’ve been here before, watching my optimism fade as the moon rises and the air chills. Checking my email compulsively to see if anyone has replied to my last-minute couch request post on CouchSurfing. Smiling at each passing stranger and imagining the circumstances that could lead us into sharing the night (totally nonsexually….I mean unless that’s what we were into..).
These moments bring me into deeper contact with myself and the world, stirring up all kinds of questions:
What do I really need to survive?
What are my main fears? What would happen if the scenarios I fear (ex. sleeping on the street) actually played out?
Am I putting undue stress on the situation? At what point am I just being stubborn?
What does it mean for me to navigate this as a person with many privileges that make it somewhat safe for me, while so many people face homelessness with additional challenges?
I’ve seen these moments play out a few ways, including spending a night on the street in Florence with a couple young Mexican women I met at the train station. That ended up being one of my favorite nights of my travels in Europe, and seeing that even without shelter I was provided for in many ways was liberating. I have a pretty good feeling about tonight. We’re in a college town and people seem pretty friendly and open. We did post on CouchSurfing, and if that fails we met a nomadic couple that have some space where they’re RV camping at a nearby state park and we’d only have to pay $10 to park our car.
This morning we awoke in or near Beverly Hills (I don’t understand LA) at my friend David’s house. David and I traveled through Israel together when we were 17 on a program called Nesiya, and hadn’t seen each other since. Pretty wild! We just passed through LA to interview Rabbi Mike Comins, creator of TorahTrek Jewish Wilderness programs. It was great to meet him and receive his wisdom and perspective! After seeing very little of LA, we continued on up Highway 1 (along the coast) and figured we’d keep driving short today and camp on the beach along the way. And if not on the beach, there are national forests closeby where we could camp for cheap or free. Once we got to Santa Barbara and checked it out, it became clear that the tiiiiimes they are a chaaangin. These California residents aren’t too keen on the beach bums and RV-ers strolling through and trying to live on the land, and much of the area has become strictly privatized. Even if we could get to the beach somewhere and evade the patrol, where would we park? The streets are private roads! No doubt if we’d arrived earlier or done some more scouting, we could probably have found a place. As it stands, we feel more inclined to take our luck with other humans.
We’re sending out the intention to share space with someone who could use some hope, love and inspiration in their lives. Participating in this mutual *sparking* gives us such joy, each encounter building our trust in the lifestyle of interbeing. Our travels so far have affirmed our belief that we can be gifts to one another and support each other in a natural, symbiotic way.
So, I’m coming to know these moments as beautiful opportunities. I can go into a fear and self-pity spiral, or I can recognize that this is where it gets FUN–what a chance to experiment with manifestation and engage in dialogue with Source! If I can stay aware (read: STAY CALM and present), I can conduct little experiments and try to observe their effects:
Setting intentions: How can I get really clear about what I’m asking Source to provide? What happens if I shift the focus from fulfilling something I think I need to something that could help others?
As always, this is followed by noticing how it impacts my external reality and my experience in my body.
Shifting my energetic state: What’s the feeling I want to have? Do I really need something external to feel that way or can I embody it simply by choosing to attune to that state? When I decide to feel calm, for instance, I attract that principle into my energetic field. Now I’m bathing in a frequency of calm, and I’m also emanating it to others. How does this impact my experience of life?
Opening up to my environment: Are there any numbers that keep coming up, symbols I’m drawn to, people I keep running into, etc.? Where do I feel drawn? If I smile at people, who meets my gaze? Is there someone I feel compelled to speak to?
Appealing to other entities: What allies can I call upon? Are there plants I have relationship with that might help me by inspiring courage, love, strength, etc.? Rosemary is my primary plant ally, so I chose to write this post in a booth under its name at Silver Greens (couldn’t hurt!). We can also always ask our ancestors, spirit guides, angels, etc. for support.
Teach me to open my heart and trust, Rosemary!
Those are some of my main tools I’m playing with these days. Do you have any experiments of your own? Leave a comment! The more we know…
But seriously, the more we can trust ourselves and others and remain calm in the face of challenge, the more we can cooperate and help each other rather than spinning off into fear and self-preservation at the expense of others (who are pieces of us!).
No matter what Great Spirit brings us tonight, I know it’ll be just what we need. We’re also fortunate that if things really did get unsafe, we could find a motel. As it stands, we’d rather hold out for a chance to share light with others and inspire each other in a mutual cycle of nourishment. Weeee shall seeeeeeee…
With so much love,
Rivka